Getting Redundant

I was thinking about blogging again after how helpful it was previously. It really keeps me held accountable and getting my thoughts and ideas out into writing is pretty therapeutic. I found this blog that I started in 2011 and reading those few posts takes me back to that moment. It is amazing what has happened since then.

A few days after that terrible Valentine's week I started talking to an old friend and long story short we ended up getting married on January 1st, 2012. What a year! I married my best friend Rob Digel.

So I had originally (back in 2008)  started out at 220 pounds. I got down to 145 at my smallest. I felt amazing and so great about myself. By January of 2011 I had gained quite a bit back, up to 180. I worked hard and lost 20 something pounds. Then I got off my meds again, I got way too comfortable with my wonderful man who loves me no matter what I weigh.

In October of 2012 I went to the doctor about my thyroid medication and got on the scale and it said 222 pounds!!! There might be people out there who have some idea of how that felt but it is hard to describe. I felt like a huge failure, frustrated beyond belief. Talking to my doctor, he was very sympathetic and understanding. He checked my thyroid and also prescribed me a medication called Phentermine. You can look it up for details but it is what I really needed for a great kick start.

I have now gotten back down to 195! I am just happy to be back in one-derland and will never go back there again. My husband is so amazingly supportive and my family as well. My first goal was to get back down below 200 and my reward was dying my hair back to the color I wanted. My next goal, when I lose 50 pounds (170 pounds) I get to get the tattoo I have wanted for years. Then when I get to 149 I will plan, schedule and do whatever it takes to fund my abdomnioplasty. Rob said we will do whatever it takes to make sure it happens, he understands what it means to me.

Due to my huge weight gain and loss, and gain again and loss again, I went from a spare tire to a flat tire. I have the most disgusting stomach. I would put a picture but I want to wait till I have a before and after picture. It only gets worse the more that I lose and no amount on exercise, ab crunches, or lotions can even touch it, All doctors have told me the only solution is abdomnioplasty and that I am a perfect candidate. It will be the change that I need to get me to that point that I can be happy with me.

At the start of March I got talked into a 21 day challenge with a great personal trainer, Derek McQuinn (look him up on facebook) and I started at 195 and it is almost over and I have to weigh in again tomorrow to see the results. I had personal training sessions and group sessions and he worked me harder then I have ever worked. Even though there was a lot of pain and muscles that I did not even know existed were aching, I haven't felt this strong and motivated in such a long time.

So I will begin updating this blog a lot more often and let you all know my ups and downs and keep going strong, So please just keep me accountable and feel free to share your struggles and accomplishments!