Got on the scale...

January was a very crappy month for the most part, glad to be done with it and moving on with the new year. On the 1st I did step on the scale. I hate that part so much, well, not so much this time cause the results were good; but it it so scary cause I would be devastated if I saw little to no change. I lost 13 pounds this month!!! That felt good, makes that goal not seem so far away and I know what I am doing is working. I have not slowed down either, still working hard at the gym as often as I can and loving how I feel after my workouts. I am fitting into all my jeans again and feeling pretty and sexy. I cannot wait for the weather to get nice and to be able to get outside and run hopefully as much as I can, I miss it so much, the treadmill just doesn't cut it!

 I was hanging out with a friend today and came to a realization after a conversation with her about how we looked at different points in our lives, she used to be this tiny little perfect model body type and now after having babies she is still gorgeous and I am totally jealous of her skinny little body but she obviously has changes to her body after pregnancy. We looked at pictures of me before I had kids (soooo long ago) and I never ever was small, never had tiny little skinny legs or a perfect bikini body but I was not fat. I am really screwed by my height, I will forever and always have these short and stubby legs and half a torso. I don't even really know where I am going with this but I guess I have to realize my goal can't be unrealistic. I know I will be happy when the extra weight is gone and that I am beautiful at whatever weight I am at. 

Valentine's day is tomorrow, such a dumb day. I would rather get flowers or a card on a random day any other day of the year for a random sweet reason, not cause it is being forced by some day that doesn't even make sense. Single or not this day for me is just a special little day for the girls, they are my valentines. The girls like it and I love seeing them get excited about anything. Though I did get a great date on Friday but it wasn't specifically for valentine's day, but he sure did spoil me and we had a great time. Well another week starting tomorrow, I really dislike Mondays but I am happy we are back on a regular schedule. Taking things a day at a time and trusting God with all that there is to come.