It's a brand new year!

I guess what I do when I have a lot on my mind is blog. I did have another blog I started back in 2008 but for some reason I can't access it and add to it but I figure now is as good a time as any to start a new one. I started the one back in '08 asking for help, support and motivation cause I was on a mission to make a better and healthier new me. I used that blog and a lot of hard work and was able to lose more than 70 pounds. So I come to you today sad and a bit ashamed cause I am now openly admitting that I let myself go. I absolutely hate to admit that I went from my smallest in the 140's and am now back up to 179, there I said it, the scale said it and I cried. Still not the 220 I was back a long time ago, but had I kept going I wouldn't be surprised. I could make a bunch of excuses but I just got content and lazy.

A big obstacle I have is my thyroid disorder hypothyroidism (https://health.google.com/health/ref/Hypothyroidism). I have to admit that I have been lazy on a lot of levels lately and procrastinated a lot, NOT ANYMORE! I made the excuse that I no longer have health insurance so I couldn't get a prescription for the meds that I need. Also my contacts are really old and the wrong prescription so my sight has gotten worse and worse. Well as of this week, the first week of the new year, I have an appointment to get my thyroid checked and get meds and an appointment to get new contacts! Also working on getting a lot of things in my life more organized in my life from my bills, to taxes, to my house. Also applying for assistance to go back to school one of these days =)

So back to the plan. I started out with a bang and am pretty happy right now. I haven't been eating well at all in the past months but that has already completely changed. I haven't had much of an appetite since the new year started so I have already shrunk my stomach and been doing amazing on my eating, not cheating at all and enjoying the food I do eat, just a lot less of it. Started back to the gym on Monday, along with all the other resolutioners. I did a pretty tough class and was hurting today but still went back in to work out for another hour. Will be back tomorrow for another group class, same for the rest of the week. I only get Sundays off from the gym just cause the childcare is only open during the time I go to church, otherwise I would be there. SO! I will get on my meds, even gonna probably do the Alli plan again, it seemed to help a lot last time. Hit the gym as much as possible and get back into my skinny clothes and I have this sexy pair of jeans that are my ultimate goal, they are just sitting in my room where I can see them. Gonna print out some skinny and fat pictures of myself and put them all over for motivation.

Please keep me in your prayers and keep me held accountable to this whole thing. I am not a slacker anymore, come too far to go back to the way things were. I am excited to see what God has in store this year. More to come, you will be seeing that number get less and less!